Ok, yeah. It's been forever since I've done anything here. Though I doubt anyone cares since no one reads this (just like no one goes to my DevArt (I'm a successful nobody.)) So, hum, yeah. Well I guess I should try to update this more. Same with my Gaia page (I'm such a bandwagon person, dang.) I should also update my DevArt itself. Maybe draw some things. I just need some inspiration, that of which has disappeared lately...
]]>Who or what do you really love?
Fiction. Yep I'm just that lame. I find that most fiction people or fictional lives are at least a bit better than real people or lives. I'd probably be more likely to fall in love with a fictional character from one of my animes or something than someone from school or something. I guess I'm just lame!!!
Ok, so Dane Cook is a comedian. An extremely funny comedian that I can relate to! Whenever I listen to him on YouTube (one of my favorite sites) I can't not laugh! It's impossible. So one night, I was listening to it while on DeviantArt (another favorite site) and my dad had brought me hot chocolate. So I was listening to it and I took a drink of my hot chocolate when he said something funny, of course me being the idiot i am i started to laugh. But OMG, I'm drinking hot chocolate!! So, depending on where I am, I usually just spew it out, I have an extreme fear of choking, a very stupid fear since it's just about impossible to stop. But I was at my desk where it's not a very good idea to spew liquid. 1. I had homework on my desk, 2. My computer and many other electronics are on this desk. So I began freaking out. I tried swallowing it really fast and I ending up swallowing a lot of air. Finally I swallowed it all and I ran to the kitchen to drink water which was hard since I was still coughing. I was finally ok breathing wise. But my stomach, back, and nerves all hurt. So I'll leave on this note, Don't Drink Anything no... Don't EAT/DRINK/OR CONSUME ANYTHING AT ANYTIME When Listening/Watching Dane Cook!
What won't you miss about 2007?
Submitted by uncagedbird.
What won't I miss? Oh that's easy! That year!! Ok, ok, I must admit there were a lot of things last year that I will miss, mostly my youth. But the thing is is that I can't just put my finger on one specific thing that I'll hate the most. 1.) The ending of the ** grade sucked because all my friends started moving, fighting, or threatening to commit suicide. 2.) Overall the summer was great the only thing that sucked then was the betrayal of my 'friends' (It is now that I wonder why I ever thought of them as friends. They never acted like friends should and never helped me out in any way, shape, or form.) 3.) eh, let's not even mention the beginning of the ** grade... 4.) The ** grade will be my last year going to a public school (something that I'm looking forward to very much) so I don't want to have to do all that again when I'm so close to getting out of it! So really the only thing I will miss is my youth. I'm growing up waaaay to fast in my case and I want to stay as young and innocent for as long as I can!
** = Yeah I know the censored ** is lame but I don't trust strangers enough to give out what grade I'm in so there. I will say that I am between Middle School and High School but that is it.
OMG...I just painted my nails!! O.O! Really this wouldn't be such a big deal but it's been about 7 years since i've painted my nails and I didn't just paint them with a clear color or a light color I paint them Black and Silver!!! OoO!! People at school will freak I know it!!! ^w^ (hehe, emotes rock)!!!! I might upload a pic later.
]]>Ok, this is an issue that has been bugging me for a while. All my friends say I need therapy... WHY?!! Most of them say my mind is messed up because of the fact that I'm always having these weirds dreams that are just horrible beyond all belief. One of them *cough cough* Ty *cough cough* says I need therapy because I complain too much. Whatever. All I know is that they all say I need therapy even my best friend ever just because I have terrible dreams. I don't know.
People are already asking me why I haven't 'Christmas-ized' all my web stuff yet or why I haven't drawn Christmasy stuff yet. The answer to all this is; I just haven't gotten into the Christmas mood yet. Christmas is suppose to be happy. Lately I've felt sad, angry, pissed, drooping, or like death which is not Christmasy. Christmas is suppose to have happy or Christmas music. I have been listening to rap, emo, metal, sad, rock, or other non-happy/Christmacy music. Christmas involves blue, white, green, and red. Lately I have been feeling weird around colors including these, so I hate all colors right now but black and white don't go well either, go figure :/ . And right now all the stupid Christmas crap going on right now isn't helping, maybe when Christmas break starts I'll feel more Christmasy. School has been overwhelming me to an extreme level. Oh, and Christmas, has been used waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to much in this whole paragraph.
Song Listened to While Writing:
Title: The Nobodies
Artist: Marilyn Manson <----- See what I mean :/
Ok, so we were doing poems in English and I learned.... I LOVE POEMS!!! I have taken a deep love to poems, especially since I noticed after reading some or writing some I usually feel better. So we had to write a poem as an assigntment and I made another poem for extra credit. Now both me and my mom liked the poem Saddness better than Anger but my teacher said she liked Anger better. So I'm putting both of these up to see which rates more.
"Saddness"
Saddness
A feeling
Most cannot describe
A black feeling
in the pit or your stomach
and sometimes your heart
it fills the heart dragging it down
deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper
it hurts, you can feel it
you start to feel like death
it's a dark feeling
it cries to you
it mourns for you
even if no one else does
Some say it's nothing
but it is something
it is
Saddness
it can be caused
it can be forced
it can just happen at any given time
for some they find a solution
to get rid of the black abyss
for others it stays
it torments you
fills you with dread
your heart, your soul
sometimes it laughs at you
your human mortality
fills you with fear
it loves it, it lives off of it
this monster
this thing called
Saddness
it loves to see you cry
it loves your pain
it has no pity
it hates you
you, and all around you
it loves death
it loves it so much it fill you with it
it wants you dead
so it makes you feel dead
Some thing it's nothing
But it is something
And it's very important
it is
Saddness
"Anger"
It boils
the emotion of anger makes you want to scream
like a volcano you want to blow
but you don't
you keep it in
you let it fester, you let it boil
a stab in the heart
you're mad at anyone
and everyone
it's so intense
a fire burning in your heart
burning in your soul
a crazything that makes you busy
makes you rush
you tell no one
'til it's too late
you scream
you yell
you hurt
it could be physical
it could be emotional
but they all hurt the same
a stab in the heart, it hurts
it's like a long needle that's buring yet freezing at the same time is in your heart
poisoning you
blurring your vision
blurring you senses
until you gol blind with rage
Similar to Saddness you go crazy
Intense
Panic
Pain
you want pain
to someone or yourself
somewhere, somehow
danger to all around you
even yourself
it's crazy
you're crazy
now or never
'til it's too late
it makes you boil
like a volcano
Hatred
it's your death
So which one is better or should I just give up all hope of poetry at all?
Hello Vox!! This is my first eva blog post on vox. I have other blogs but they are not veiwable to the public so I made this acount so others can read my blogs and I'd get more opinions. I don't post often though so don't get your hopes up for constant blogging. This was introduced to me by my awsome mother; Mrs Groovy .